— Why didn't you let me die?
— What's your hurry? Are you in pain? That's all that matters. The rest is fantasy. Billions of years it's taken to evolve human consciousness... and you want to wipe it out. Wipe out the miracle of all existence. More important than anything in the whole universe. What can the stars do? Nothing... but sit on their axis. And the sun, shooting flames... 280,000 miles high... so what? Wasting all its natural resources. Can the sun think? Is it conscious? No, but you are.
You are right if you draw the right conclusions.
— Are you okay?
— Don't ask. I'm tired of my complaints.
— What are you thinking about?
— How to die, mostly.
You locked yourself in the bathroom
Lying on the floor when I break through
I pull you in to feel your heartbeat
Can you hear me screaming "please don't leave me"
Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you.
— Oh, wait, everyone. It's Justin Foley and Zach Dempsey, star basketball players here at Liberty High. Hey, Justin, where's my bike? Justin stole my bike.
— What the fuck? What are you doing?
— I'm giving our new foreign exchange students a tour. Figured they should know who owns the school, right, you guys?
— Clay.
— Right, right. Moving on. Where were we? Right. The auditorium. Oh, oh, but before we go... I want to show you something super cool. Okay?
— Clay, cut it out.
— Look at these lockers. They all look alike, right? Not this one. This one is special. It belonged to a girl who killed herself.
— Clay, come on!
— You see all these "don't kill yourself" posters up on the wall? They weren't up before. They put them up because she killed herself. And why did she do it? Because the kids her treated her like shit!
— Jensen, that's enough.
— But no one wants to admit it, so they paint over the bathrooms and put up the memorial, because that's the kind of school that this is! Everyone is just so nice until they drive you to kill yourself! And sooner or later the truth will come out! It's gonna come out.
Doppo Kunikida: — What's going on?
Atsushi Nakajima: — Kunikida-san. I think this may explain it.
Osamu Dazai: — I knew the Complete Guide to Suicide was a masterpiece! Who knew I just needed to eat mushrooms growing in the nearby hills to have such an entertaining way out?!
— She just stepped into the canal... It was me trying to stop her, for three days. In the end, she did it anyway.
— Did she say why?
— Nothing that made sense.
— Tell me the things that didn't make sense.
— She said it were the Gypsies made the nails for Jesus's cross. That's why we're cursed and restless. You have to move around or the guilt catches up with you. <...> And then she was gone... You see, I was in love with her, Tom. No one knew but me. Broke my fucking heart to pull her from the cut. You know, your grandfather, he went the same way. Suicide. Sometimes, these things run in the family. Fuck family, Tom. You just have to get on with it. You're a Gypsy. You have to move around, or it all catches up with you.
Explanation:
Charlie tells Tom about his mother's death.
I was trying to kill myself. <...> I am Dazai. Dazai Osamu.
— I'm supposed to treat you like a fucking kid again, uh? Keep you away from guns and fucking rope, is that it? You think I haven't got enough on?! You think I haven't got enough on? The war is done! Shut the door on it. Shut the door on it like I did, eh?... Like I fucking did.
— Like you? But I'm not fucking you! I am not fucking you! Everyone fucking knows it!
Explanation:
Arthur tried to commit suicide.