When you're broken and he's gone, don't torment yourself with the question:
were you enough?
The problem is something else: there were so many of you that he couldn't handle it.
Never thought I'd have to retire
Never thought I'd have to abstain
Never thought all this could back fire
Close up the hole in my vein...
You leave me wanting
Oh tell me where'd you go
Don't be invisible
Cause I am reaching
I couldn't take it, couldn't stand another minute
Couldn't bear another day without you in it.
All of the joy that I had known for all my life
Was stripped away from me the minute that you died.
To have you in my life was all I ever wanted
But now without you I'm a soul forever haunted
Can't help but feel that I had taken you for granted
No way in hell that I can ever comprehend this.
Anywhere you go,
All roads still lead to.
It’s harder than you know?
To be led back to.
This is not a case of, "I came in this world alone "and I'm going out of it alone," or anything dumb like that. I did not come in this world alone, my mom was there. And I am not going out of it alone, 'cause you are there, drunk on the couch, making Oscar Wilde cock jokes.
In a darkened room
Right beside the bed
There an empty suitcase waits 'til I leave again.
I try to fill it up
With things that feel like home
But no matter what goes in, I still feel alone
When I'm on my own.
It is so hard to leave — until you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing in the world.
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