It’s easier to part with a man than with illusions about him.
When you lose someone, it stays with you. Always reminding you of how easy it is to get hurt.
What I'm trying to say is I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places that you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or... how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends. You still go to bed every night, going over every detail, and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell, for that brief moment, you could think that you were that happy? And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted... that will eventually begin to fade.
Once so much to each other!
Now nothing!
In every doomed relationship, there comes what I like to call "The uh-oh moment". When a certain little something happens, and you know you've just witnessed the beginning of the end. And suddenly you stop and you think, "Uh-oh, iceberg ahead".
Elliot, I'm crazy about you, but I've been going over this in my head all week. I've been in a long-distance relationship before. It was a disaster. I believe a couple has a better chance if they just cut the cord and know that if it's meant to be, fate will bring them back together.
So goodbye, my friend.
Until we meet again,
Some other day.
I know so much will change.
But looking back I can say,
I wouldn't change a day.
I hope you can say the same.
That you understand,
The only life we have,
Is here and now,
Not up in the clouds.
With every breath we can say,
It is a brand new day.