I guess I could be pretty pissed of f about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life...
It's a great thing to realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself.
— Will you please do me a favor and act happy tonight?
— I am happy, honey.
— Jane. Honey. Are you trying to look unattractive?
— Yes.
— Well, congratulations You've succeeded admirably.
I feel like I've been in a coma for about twenty years, and I'm just now waking up.
Look at me, jerking off in the shower... This will be the high point of my day; it's all downhill from here.
And that's the day I knew there was this entire life behind things, and... this incredibly benevolent force, that wanted me to know there was no reason to be afraid. Ever. Video's a poor excuse. But it helps me remember... and I need to remember... Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in.