When you're struggling with your mental health, it's important to know what to do and acknowledge it. That's something I'm not ashamed of. I had to re-study things that completely flew out of my head. It was something like, "Hey, you're not a bad person. You're not a rude person. You're not crazy. You're none of these things, but you're going to have to deal with it. I know it's hard, but that's the reality." And I realized that the relationship with bipolar disorder and with myself... It's not going anywhere. I'm just trying to make friends with it now. I think I had to go through this to be who I am. And I'm going to keep going through it, but I'm really happy. I'm at peace. I'm angry. I'm sad. I'm confident. I am full of doubts. I'm working on myself. I am enough. I'm Selena.
There a girl who's crippled by anxiety and can't move
when she looks in the mirror. She smiles when everyone is looking but cries when she's alone. She hides because she's terrified to show herself. My world is so empty. My world is so big and cold. I want joy and hope. Dean air where I can finally breathe.