I don't know what living a balanced life feels like
When i am sad i don't cry, i pour
When i am happy i don't smile, i glow
When i am angry i don't yell, i burn
The good thing about feeling in extremes is when i love i give them wings but perhaps that isn't such a good thing? Cause they always tend to leave.
And you should see me when my heart is broken — i don't grieve i shatter.
Father. You always call to say nothing in particular. You ask what i’m doing or where i am and when the silence stretches like a lifetime between us i scramble to find questions to keep the conversation going. What i long to say most is. I understand this world broke you. It has been so hard on your feet. I don’t blame you for not knowing how to remain soft with me. Sometimes i stay up thinking of all the places you are hurting which you’ll never care to mention. I come from the same aching blood. From the same bone so desperate for attention i collapse in on myself. I am your daughter. I know the small talk is the only way you know how to tell me you love me. Cause it is the only way i know how to tell you.